i feel like killing myself for being so restless. i realised that alot of pple had started revising for e.o.y. and i haven. i tried but to no avail. and right now i mean juz now, i was doing my family project. i shld have doe it ages ago so that now i won't need to do it. and i haven study for my HCL test nxt wk. not to say math.
frankly speaking, i didn understand wat mrs. fung is toking about, guess i will haf to get a tuition t'cher nxt time. this is the first time i wanted a tuition t'cher myself. i used to think tt i don need a tuition t'cher, but i now, i really feel tt i need. but wat's the use, even if i haf a thousand t'chers teahing me, it's of no use. everything is too late. and u may ask, "then wat the heck are u doing here? u shld now go study!" well, i wished i could. but i couldn't i haven finish my project. and i haven finish my hmk.
i wonder y am i so stupid? and the worst thing is: y am i so lazy? y carn i juz put in more effort? y carn i juz stop watching tv and letting my mind wander? y carn i juz concentrate on my work? this is frustrating i tell u. u want to do something but u juz carn do it. now i want someone to push me yet i don't. contradicting huh? i myself dunno wat im saying.
now my hand is very painful, after typing so much.
today i went s'pore confrence hall to attend some forum. at first we wanted to go b'cos we realised tt we didn't receiveany prize and our certs of partcipation already. but we entered in the end. alot of mayflower students got the prizes. then the forum started. the system goes like, there is a representative for each generation. (like, the younger genereation, the mid-twenties and so on until the odler generation...) i carn help but giggled at the person who represented the younger generation. he looked so mature! like those twenty something... but actually he's still studying in, i suppose, college? then his voice was like... WOAH! super deep. then me was like ,laughing? i feel so rude myself. bleah. and i especially enjoyed the refreshments. the chocolate and cream thing... wah. VERY nice. and the cheesey tart. it's almost the best refreshments i had. oh! and we had a goodie bag exchanged with the survey form given to us. inside contains some phamplets, a packet of instant noodles, 2 packs tissue, a calculator (but i exchanged with ash, so i got a badge instead). okie lah... and a plastic bag to contain these items.
well, i enjoyed the forum, but i still feel that im kind of wasting my time...
erm... is this my longest entry...? dunno and don care.
want to stab myself again... wasting my time on blogging... wat the? am i doing? see lah... i lack of determination... who can help me with it? hu can help me overcome my obstacle? sigh...
okie. if u ever see my getting crazy and reallie mad. don be surprised. i am halfway thru' it now. so... wait for the good show. i sound abit dangerous now, don't i? don worry, i haf lots of things to do currently. i won't haf enuf' time to sharpen the knife or walk up the stairs to a high storey. and do pray for me, if u are kind enuf', that nth will happen to me... i will pray for myself too. I WANT TO GO THRU' THE E.O.Y, AND PASS WITH FLYING COLOURS!!!
frankly speaking, i didn understand wat mrs. fung is toking about, guess i will haf to get a tuition t'cher nxt time. this is the first time i wanted a tuition t'cher myself. i used to think tt i don need a tuition t'cher, but i now, i really feel tt i need. but wat's the use, even if i haf a thousand t'chers teahing me, it's of no use. everything is too late. and u may ask, "then wat the heck are u doing here? u shld now go study!" well, i wished i could. but i couldn't i haven finish my project. and i haven finish my hmk.
i wonder y am i so stupid? and the worst thing is: y am i so lazy? y carn i juz put in more effort? y carn i juz stop watching tv and letting my mind wander? y carn i juz concentrate on my work? this is frustrating i tell u. u want to do something but u juz carn do it. now i want someone to push me yet i don't. contradicting huh? i myself dunno wat im saying.
now my hand is very painful, after typing so much.
today i went s'pore confrence hall to attend some forum. at first we wanted to go b'cos we realised tt we didn't receiveany prize and our certs of partcipation already. but we entered in the end. alot of mayflower students got the prizes. then the forum started. the system goes like, there is a representative for each generation. (like, the younger genereation, the mid-twenties and so on until the odler generation...) i carn help but giggled at the person who represented the younger generation. he looked so mature! like those twenty something... but actually he's still studying in, i suppose, college? then his voice was like... WOAH! super deep. then me was like ,laughing? i feel so rude myself. bleah. and i especially enjoyed the refreshments. the chocolate and cream thing... wah. VERY nice. and the cheesey tart. it's almost the best refreshments i had. oh! and we had a goodie bag exchanged with the survey form given to us. inside contains some phamplets, a packet of instant noodles, 2 packs tissue, a calculator (but i exchanged with ash, so i got a badge instead). okie lah... and a plastic bag to contain these items.
well, i enjoyed the forum, but i still feel that im kind of wasting my time...
erm... is this my longest entry...? dunno and don care.
want to stab myself again... wasting my time on blogging... wat the? am i doing? see lah... i lack of determination... who can help me with it? hu can help me overcome my obstacle? sigh...
okie. if u ever see my getting crazy and reallie mad. don be surprised. i am halfway thru' it now. so... wait for the good show. i sound abit dangerous now, don't i? don worry, i haf lots of things to do currently. i won't haf enuf' time to sharpen the knife or walk up the stairs to a high storey. and do pray for me, if u are kind enuf', that nth will happen to me... i will pray for myself too. I WANT TO GO THRU' THE E.O.Y, AND PASS WITH FLYING COLOURS!!!
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